Life is a puzzle
Its a question mark
Its a mystery
It can be beautiful or ugly
Recently Ive had a lot of time in my hands
To do a lot of things
But I have been thinking a lot lately
Today I thought about life
It seems that all the things in my life
Have worked out, most of the time
In a good way...
I wonder why or how it works out so
Perfectly
Its like a jigsaw puzzle piece falling
Into that perfect spot
Things fit perfectly to create a picture
That is life I guess
The more interesting thing is that
Puzzle pieces of my life can interact with
Other people's pieces
In other words, my actions can effect
Someone I dont even know
For instance, someone quits their job
Because they needed to, then I get hired
Because the previous employee quit
Then I quit because I have my reasons
Then someone else is going to get hired
To fill in my place
So when I quit my job, it opens an
Opportunity for someone I dont even
Know
This process will repeat countless times
Envolving countless amount of people
So what is the lesson?
Everything will work out
Its like that saying
"When one door closes, another will open"
We all just have to wait patiently
We need to have some confidence
And determination
If we have those, we can
Lead a truly worry-free life
That is the beauty of life
Because Life is not something out of control
We can control Life if we choose to
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Monday, February 1, 2010
Tricked But Glad
Recently I discovered the joy of social chatting sites
On there i met a girl who claimed to be attending UC Davis
she was 19 year old freshmen
Blond with blue eyes and looking for some people (guys) to chat
and maybe meet
She and I talked and I felt that she was really nice person
She said she felt the same and wanted to meet
When she said that I was excited
She said her brother's birthday was coming up and will be in the area
since her brother attends UC Riverside
So i told her to come to Starbucks near by
the Time was 5:00 PM
she and i talked until we got disconnected
I saved our chat and read it over the next day
something didnt add up
She said she lives in San Jose
but she and she and her family will be visiting
her brother
It is her brother's birthday and birthdays are special day
once in a year thing
so i understand if they visit for a week
but from San Jose?
not to mention her brother's birthday is on a weekday
I dont think both of her parents would take a week off
from their work just to visit
Plus I know that my friends are busy studying for their
Midterms
He would be too busy to celebrate
Plus he would rather celebrate with his friends with some alcohol
than with family
Plus the part about being there for a week is bit suspicious
Her brother was staying in the dorms so that means
her family will have to get a room at a hotel or a motel
which is very expensive
she also said her brother will give her a ride to our meeting location
but how?
he has classes and midterm
Riverside to our location is 2 to 2.5 hour drive
that means he has to leave at least at 2:30 PM
and on Tuesday
lets say he doesnt have any classes that day
but the last fact proves that she is faking
She said she was attending UC Davis
She said she was visiting her brother for a week
because she was on winter break
When I checked UC Davis's Winter Quarter begins in January 4th
And there is no way a student would miss weeks worth of instructions
just for her brother's birthday
so my conclusion...
i dont even know if she is a girl or a guy just playing with me
but one thing is for certain
if i dont go to our meeting destination at the planned time
i would wonder "Was she really there? Did i stood her out?" for the rest of my life
So my plan....
I am going to the planned Starbucks at the planned time (5:00 PM)
Its ok if she doesnt show up
Its for my own sake
If she doesnt show up I would know that she didnt show up
and I have to be careful about these things in the future
plus I know that she didnt show up
If she does show up
maybe we will enjoy ourselves
and maybe we can take things bit further
and form a relationship
or at least a friendship
I have nothing to lose...In fact I gained something
For a week now I have been thinking about this girl
Trying to picture her in my head
preparing for our date...conversation topics, what i am going to wear, etc
This helped me forget about my old love
my 4 year crush
I felt more enlightened for this 1 week
and for that i am grateful for her
Wish me Luck
On there i met a girl who claimed to be attending UC Davis
she was 19 year old freshmen
Blond with blue eyes and looking for some people (guys) to chat
and maybe meet
She and I talked and I felt that she was really nice person
She said she felt the same and wanted to meet
When she said that I was excited
She said her brother's birthday was coming up and will be in the area
since her brother attends UC Riverside
So i told her to come to Starbucks near by
the Time was 5:00 PM
she and i talked until we got disconnected
I saved our chat and read it over the next day
something didnt add up
She said she lives in San Jose
but she and she and her family will be visiting
her brother
It is her brother's birthday and birthdays are special day
once in a year thing
so i understand if they visit for a week
but from San Jose?
not to mention her brother's birthday is on a weekday
I dont think both of her parents would take a week off
from their work just to visit
Plus I know that my friends are busy studying for their
Midterms
He would be too busy to celebrate
Plus he would rather celebrate with his friends with some alcohol
than with family
Plus the part about being there for a week is bit suspicious
Her brother was staying in the dorms so that means
her family will have to get a room at a hotel or a motel
which is very expensive
she also said her brother will give her a ride to our meeting location
but how?
he has classes and midterm
Riverside to our location is 2 to 2.5 hour drive
that means he has to leave at least at 2:30 PM
and on Tuesday
lets say he doesnt have any classes that day
but the last fact proves that she is faking
She said she was attending UC Davis
She said she was visiting her brother for a week
because she was on winter break
When I checked UC Davis's Winter Quarter begins in January 4th
And there is no way a student would miss weeks worth of instructions
just for her brother's birthday
so my conclusion...
i dont even know if she is a girl or a guy just playing with me
but one thing is for certain
if i dont go to our meeting destination at the planned time
i would wonder "Was she really there? Did i stood her out?" for the rest of my life
So my plan....
I am going to the planned Starbucks at the planned time (5:00 PM)
Its ok if she doesnt show up
Its for my own sake
If she doesnt show up I would know that she didnt show up
and I have to be careful about these things in the future
plus I know that she didnt show up
If she does show up
maybe we will enjoy ourselves
and maybe we can take things bit further
and form a relationship
or at least a friendship
I have nothing to lose...In fact I gained something
For a week now I have been thinking about this girl
Trying to picture her in my head
preparing for our date...conversation topics, what i am going to wear, etc
This helped me forget about my old love
my 4 year crush
I felt more enlightened for this 1 week
and for that i am grateful for her
Wish me Luck
Thursday, December 10, 2009
I am Struggling...WTF is the Goverment doing?!
So during 2 hour drive today I also thought about what the government was doing about the Budget Cuts
then i see this car in the lane next too me come into my lane half way without signaling
i have to slam on my brakes to avoid crashing, when i honked the car backed off
i pass by and what i see?
a slut on her fucking iPhone
last time i checked talking on the phone while driving was illegal
where are the cops
then i noticed that a cop car was right behind me
i was excited, i thought he was gonna pull this slut over and give her a fat ticket
but no, he drives by as if nothing happened
uhmmm
why do we pay tax?
why does government spend millions of tax payers dollar every month on police?
we are paying for cops' doughnuts and gas
we are not paying for services we think we are paying
i have seen too many people break laws and commit crimes in front of police and get away with it
if we were to cut spending on policing and used on education me and millions of students won't be suffering right now
here is what i have to say
Fuck the police
Fuck the politicians
and Fuck the government
then i see this car in the lane next too me come into my lane half way without signaling
i have to slam on my brakes to avoid crashing, when i honked the car backed off
i pass by and what i see?
a slut on her fucking iPhone
last time i checked talking on the phone while driving was illegal
where are the cops
then i noticed that a cop car was right behind me
i was excited, i thought he was gonna pull this slut over and give her a fat ticket
but no, he drives by as if nothing happened
uhmmm
why do we pay tax?
why does government spend millions of tax payers dollar every month on police?
we are paying for cops' doughnuts and gas
we are not paying for services we think we are paying
i have seen too many people break laws and commit crimes in front of police and get away with it
if we were to cut spending on policing and used on education me and millions of students won't be suffering right now
here is what i have to say
Fuck the police
Fuck the politicians
and Fuck the government
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Anger, Frustration, and CSU System
Today was my registration date at CSUN
I have no classes Spring 2010 semester and I was pissed enough to post hateful "Note" post and Status updates on Facebook.
the "Note" and status update was about forming Fight Clubs on CSU campuses and eventually bombing Admissions & Records offices and book stores, this will mean everyone will have zero units, therefore everyone will have same registration date
well today I took 2 hour drive to no where to calm myself and think about a lot of stuff.
I thought back to my life thinking "What did I do to deserve this fate?"
I thought about the time I gave $5 to a homeless lady, the time where I helped an elderly lady carry packs of bottled water at Costco, and other good deeds I have done throughout my life.
Not enough good deeds? Maybe
Bad deeds too evil? Maybe
then I remembered a scene from Fight Club
the scene goes like this
Brad Pitt and Edward Norton arrives in front of a run down liquor store.
Pitt goes into the store and brings out the clerk to the back at gun point
Pitt grabs the clerk's wallet and digs through it
Pitt finds an expired community college ID and asks what the clerk was studying
clerk answers "Stuff"
Pitt threatens to kill the clerk and ask for more detailed answer
clerk answers "Biology"
Pitt asks "Why did you quit?"
clerk answers "Too many tests"
Pitt asks "What did you wanted to be?"
clerk answers "Veterinarian"
Pitt tells the clerk to pursue his dreams and tell him to run home and if he doesnt do what he said he will find the clerk and kill him
the clerk runs
Norton who was watching this asks Pitt what was the point
Pitt answers "It will be a new day for him, his meal will taste better than anything we've ever tasted."
I placed myself as the clerk
kinda got me inspired and calmed myself...
then I realized that all my principles and ideas come from movies
i dont know if this is a good thing or a bad thing
i will get back to it when i find out
I have no classes Spring 2010 semester and I was pissed enough to post hateful "Note" post and Status updates on Facebook.
the "Note" and status update was about forming Fight Clubs on CSU campuses and eventually bombing Admissions & Records offices and book stores, this will mean everyone will have zero units, therefore everyone will have same registration date
well today I took 2 hour drive to no where to calm myself and think about a lot of stuff.
I thought back to my life thinking "What did I do to deserve this fate?"
I thought about the time I gave $5 to a homeless lady, the time where I helped an elderly lady carry packs of bottled water at Costco, and other good deeds I have done throughout my life.
Not enough good deeds? Maybe
Bad deeds too evil? Maybe
then I remembered a scene from Fight Club
the scene goes like this
Brad Pitt and Edward Norton arrives in front of a run down liquor store.
Pitt goes into the store and brings out the clerk to the back at gun point
Pitt grabs the clerk's wallet and digs through it
Pitt finds an expired community college ID and asks what the clerk was studying
clerk answers "Stuff"
Pitt threatens to kill the clerk and ask for more detailed answer
clerk answers "Biology"
Pitt asks "Why did you quit?"
clerk answers "Too many tests"
Pitt asks "What did you wanted to be?"
clerk answers "Veterinarian"
Pitt tells the clerk to pursue his dreams and tell him to run home and if he doesnt do what he said he will find the clerk and kill him
the clerk runs
Norton who was watching this asks Pitt what was the point
Pitt answers "It will be a new day for him, his meal will taste better than anything we've ever tasted."
I placed myself as the clerk
kinda got me inspired and calmed myself...
then I realized that all my principles and ideas come from movies
i dont know if this is a good thing or a bad thing
i will get back to it when i find out
Monday, November 16, 2009
California Budget Crisis
Adults often say "Children are our future, they will be our next leaders, scientists, and artists." yet California is cutting millions of dollars from Education.
The school system in California is almost the worst in the nation.
College tuition have reached its record high, classes have significantly decreased, and many lost jobs.
I am planning to take upcoming Winter Semester off because it would be near impossible to get the classes I need, in fact, it would be near impossible to get any classes next semester.
Friends have advised me to look at community colleges, I will try, but its not looking too good.
First week of 2009-2010 school year, I met a freshmen who was going around looking for classes. She was in most of my classes so I talked to her and asked about her situation. She said she was freshmen from San Francisco, she had 1 class and needed to add 3 more classes in order to stay in the dorms. Later I found out that she was not able to add any classes so she drop the one she had and went back to San Francisco and decided to take a year off and work full time.
She was not the only, a lot of freshmen were forced to take a semester or 2 off doing nothing or work full time, or go to community college.
Our future leaders, scientists, and artists are sitting at home, unable to attend the school of their choice or unable to receive the education they want and needed.
Our future doesn't look too well huh...
The school system in California is almost the worst in the nation.
College tuition have reached its record high, classes have significantly decreased, and many lost jobs.
I am planning to take upcoming Winter Semester off because it would be near impossible to get the classes I need, in fact, it would be near impossible to get any classes next semester.
Friends have advised me to look at community colleges, I will try, but its not looking too good.
First week of 2009-2010 school year, I met a freshmen who was going around looking for classes. She was in most of my classes so I talked to her and asked about her situation. She said she was freshmen from San Francisco, she had 1 class and needed to add 3 more classes in order to stay in the dorms. Later I found out that she was not able to add any classes so she drop the one she had and went back to San Francisco and decided to take a year off and work full time.
She was not the only, a lot of freshmen were forced to take a semester or 2 off doing nothing or work full time, or go to community college.
Our future leaders, scientists, and artists are sitting at home, unable to attend the school of their choice or unable to receive the education they want and needed.
Our future doesn't look too well huh...
Relationship
While talking with large group of people of different gender, often the topic of "Relationship" comes up. Once the topic has come up, the question "Have you been in a relationship before?" goes around, people to people. Finally its my turn, my answer "Not yet" and the interrogation begin. "Why not?" "What types of girls you like?" "Do you want to be a priest?" "Have you had bad experience with girls?" "Whats your story?"
endless questions about my life and preferences of girls pop up
I answer the countless questions thrown at me with 3 simple words "I don't know"
I don't know why I have never bothered getting a girlfriend.
I was just walking down a path called LIFE when I noticed that I am now 20 and
without a girlfriend.
This fact does not bother me, although when I am bored, I did wish I had a companion I can contact.
I am a believer of faith and destiny, maybe that is why I didn't bother being in a relationship. I am just waiting for faith or destiny to bring me the person I am suppose to meet and and share my life with.
I guess.
endless questions about my life and preferences of girls pop up
I answer the countless questions thrown at me with 3 simple words "I don't know"
I don't know why I have never bothered getting a girlfriend.
I was just walking down a path called LIFE when I noticed that I am now 20 and
without a girlfriend.
This fact does not bother me, although when I am bored, I did wish I had a companion I can contact.
I am a believer of faith and destiny, maybe that is why I didn't bother being in a relationship. I am just waiting for faith or destiny to bring me the person I am suppose to meet and and share my life with.
I guess.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Story... Part 4
A bright light shines on girls face
she squints, the light is too bright
we wakes up from deep slumber
she opens her eyes and see her boyfriend opening the blinds
he smiles as he said "Good morning sleepyhead, had a nice dream?"
she tries to respond but small headache causes her to forget what she was going to say
after couple of seconds later, she responds "Good morning...uhh"
boyfriend "Hang Over?"
girl "Maybe, most likely."
boyfriend "I will go downstairs and get some Aspirin, want anything else?"
girl "What are we gonna do for breakfast?"
boyfriend "There is a buffet that serves breakfast downstairs, I guess we can eat there later."
girl "Wat time is it?"
boyfriend "8:27"
girl "Ok then, just Aspirin and water will be fine, Thanks."
boyfriend leaves
girls is still half wake, she sits on her bed and stratchs her head
she turns on the TV
the news is on
traffic seems to be congested from people commuting to work
there is a minor accident in one freeway
in another freeway, a big rig flipped over knocking over a lamp post and spilling detergent all over the freeway, clean up is on the way but it will take time, only 2 lanes are open
next was weather, it seems that today will be 83 degrees at high
and 67 degrees at lows
with breeze but a clear day and night
there will be full moon tonight, perfect for the BBQ event she and her boyfriend will be attending later in the evening.
next was the local news
reports of accidents, robberies, and break ins the regular horrible stories
she decided to surf the TV for awhile when her boyfriend came back with small box of Aspirin and cold bottled water
she swallowed the Aspirin, maybe it was her boyfriends love, she felt better before the medicine can take effect
smiling she lies on her bed
then her boyfriend asks "So when shall we go eat breakfast?"
girl responds "Lets go around 9 o'clock"
boyfriend "9 o'clock it is."
till 9 o'clock arrives, girl lies on her bed thinking about all the wonderful things she and her boyfriend is going to do
she spent a lot of time fantasizing how her boyfriend is going to propose to her
in girl's fantasy
she and her boyfriend are at the BBQ chowing on delicious food
then suddenly her boyfriend comes up to her
and says "Hey, I have something very important to tell you and this might be the best time to tell you. We have been dating for over 3 years and I think that it is time for us to move forward..."
he kneels on one knee
then continues "I believe that you are the person I want to share my life and love with, I want to spend the rest of my life with you and you only..."
he reaches for his pocket and gets out a palm sized blue ring box and opens
the box has a beautiful diamond ring
he takes it out and while placing the ring on her ring finger
he says "Audrey, will you receive my love? Will you be my partner in life? will you be my life partner and stay with for the better or worse?"
her eyes are watery, tears starts to roll down on her cheeks
she is ready cry out loud of happiness
while holding back her urge to cry she says "y-y-y-yes."
he gets up and kisses her and embraces her tightly
she cries
and people around them applauds loudly...
a happy ending...
she smiles and looks at the clock
its 8:45, 15 minutes left
she dreams a little longer...
TO BE CONTINUED...
she squints, the light is too bright
we wakes up from deep slumber
she opens her eyes and see her boyfriend opening the blinds
he smiles as he said "Good morning sleepyhead, had a nice dream?"
she tries to respond but small headache causes her to forget what she was going to say
after couple of seconds later, she responds "Good morning...uhh"
boyfriend "Hang Over?"
girl "Maybe, most likely."
boyfriend "I will go downstairs and get some Aspirin, want anything else?"
girl "What are we gonna do for breakfast?"
boyfriend "There is a buffet that serves breakfast downstairs, I guess we can eat there later."
girl "Wat time is it?"
boyfriend "8:27"
girl "Ok then, just Aspirin and water will be fine, Thanks."
boyfriend leaves
girls is still half wake, she sits on her bed and stratchs her head
she turns on the TV
the news is on
traffic seems to be congested from people commuting to work
there is a minor accident in one freeway
in another freeway, a big rig flipped over knocking over a lamp post and spilling detergent all over the freeway, clean up is on the way but it will take time, only 2 lanes are open
next was weather, it seems that today will be 83 degrees at high
and 67 degrees at lows
with breeze but a clear day and night
there will be full moon tonight, perfect for the BBQ event she and her boyfriend will be attending later in the evening.
next was the local news
reports of accidents, robberies, and break ins the regular horrible stories
she decided to surf the TV for awhile when her boyfriend came back with small box of Aspirin and cold bottled water
she swallowed the Aspirin, maybe it was her boyfriends love, she felt better before the medicine can take effect
smiling she lies on her bed
then her boyfriend asks "So when shall we go eat breakfast?"
girl responds "Lets go around 9 o'clock"
boyfriend "9 o'clock it is."
till 9 o'clock arrives, girl lies on her bed thinking about all the wonderful things she and her boyfriend is going to do
she spent a lot of time fantasizing how her boyfriend is going to propose to her
in girl's fantasy
she and her boyfriend are at the BBQ chowing on delicious food
then suddenly her boyfriend comes up to her
and says "Hey, I have something very important to tell you and this might be the best time to tell you. We have been dating for over 3 years and I think that it is time for us to move forward..."
he kneels on one knee
then continues "I believe that you are the person I want to share my life and love with, I want to spend the rest of my life with you and you only..."
he reaches for his pocket and gets out a palm sized blue ring box and opens
the box has a beautiful diamond ring
he takes it out and while placing the ring on her ring finger
he says "Audrey, will you receive my love? Will you be my partner in life? will you be my life partner and stay with for the better or worse?"
her eyes are watery, tears starts to roll down on her cheeks
she is ready cry out loud of happiness
while holding back her urge to cry she says "y-y-y-yes."
he gets up and kisses her and embraces her tightly
she cries
and people around them applauds loudly...
a happy ending...
she smiles and looks at the clock
its 8:45, 15 minutes left
she dreams a little longer...
TO BE CONTINUED...
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