What is wrong with Youth these days?!

few posts ago i told u about the college youth group at church
and how most of people who attends the meetings are teachers of highschool youth group and sunday school youth group

well yesterday we had an outing
we went to Apple Bee's near by to eat
while eating we discussed various topics
one of the topics that came up was the high school kids they were teaching
they were saying how high school kids are so rebellious
they dont want to do anything
they wont participate
they act up
and all these negative things

you might read this and say that
kids are being just kids and its normal for high school kids to be acting like that
but from their (teachers) experiences
kids from recent years are the bad ones
there are some good ones among the bad ones but there are more bad than before
also little staff doesnt help
they would also complain about their behavior
they think (from what they observed)
one of them is doing drugs and things
and they know few of them are drinking and might be developing drinking problems

one of them talked about attending someone's birthday party at a Thai restaurant with bar that opens at happy hour
that someone being member of college group
and few of high school kids were guests
the Thai restaurant is know to not card them (checking ID)
so the high school kids (2 girls) got couple shots of hard liquor and got drunk

so in summery
kids are doing drugs
getting drunk despite being only 17 yrs old
and smoking

i am 19 and i havent done any of those
maybe 2nd hand smoke like in casinos and passing by smokers (not intentionally)
and few cups of wine and such with parental supervision but thats it
the surprising part of this is that they are not only young and attending church regularly but their parents have no idea and if they do know about their children's behavior they dont give shit or they dont want to do anything to fix the problem

what is wrong with kids these days
seriously
just few years ago kids used to be all innocent and such
now we cant even use the phrase "kids are innocent"
*sigh*
its just dreadful to think that alcoholics, crack/pot heads, drug dealers, and criminals will be in charge in the near future
i dont know about you but i am very optimistic but future isnt looking too nice right now

Black, blue, purple, painful friday

so today is the friday after Thanksgiving
Black Friday
when all the things are on sale for really really low price
today however the deals were not attractive or not as good as last year
small items did not have too good of a deal
but large appliances such as LCD TVs, refrigerator, and such things had the best deal
Last year i went to Best Buy after thanksgiving dinner and camped out
it was crazy people started pushing, tents got trampled, people lost stuff, insane
i got 3 4GB Flashdrive, couple of games, and air duster

this year my friends and i decided to go to Fry's Electronics
we arrived at 6 pm but there were already couple of hundred people before us
by 2AM the line made a spiral around the building
when people started to go crazy at 3AM the people who came late became one of the first people to go into the store
but before that let me just say, the line at Fry's was very very unorganized
everyone just started to rush and push and shit
people were being pushed against each other so tightly
people in the back pushed then people in the front pushed backwards
so people in the middle were being sandwiched

once in line all u have to do was rely on luck
if u r lucky u get pushed forward, i was with my friends and by 4AM i somehow was separated from my friends and i was way ahead of them

if u r lucky u wont be near a smoker because the body heat is already making the air stuffy, but the smoke makes it 2 times harder to get any breath of fresh air my friends were lucky because they didnt have any smokers around them, i in the other hand is 6'3 so my head was sticking out of the crowd but there was a smoker in front of me that never stopped smoking and i could not get a fresh breath of air

if u r lucky u wont be pushed and compressed so badly i was in the middle and when it was close to opening time, people started to push, i was literally lifted off the ground and pushed few feets forward, and most of the time by body was twisted and awkward shape

if u r lucky u get to be around people who are friendly that you can talk to even though the topic might not be so pleasant, i was surrounded by nice people, we talked about bad economy, good deals, what we are here to get, the line, and whole lot of shit and actually make temporary friends

if u r lucky u get to be surrounded by people of opposite gender and make temporary gf/bf, i am a guy and other than the guy in front of me, there was girls all around me and couple of them were asian and one them was pretty damn cute
later when the doors open and people started pushing, the same cute girl suddenly crossed her arm with my arm and said "sorry, but i feel like i am gonna fall if i dont grap on to you" and i was like "i dont mind"
it was damn good experience
not only was a cute girl pulling on my arm
when i got to the store
i got all the things i needed and a external hard drive that i wasnt planning to get it but i did because the cute girl that grabbed on to my arm told me it was damn good deal, i didnt see it on the ad but what she said was true

but afterwards my body ached like there is no tmr
and all of my friends decided not to go to fry's next year
because it was so unorganized and the cops, firefighters, and employees did not do anything to stop the people at the back of the line from pushing
and the only thing i regret the most is not getting the cute girl's info
her number would be nice but knowing her name would be nice too
only thing i found out about her was that she was asian, average height, average body, and was getting the external hard drive she told me about
o well
hope everyone who went to stores today but good deals on the things they bought

Happy Thanksgiving

i am probably gonna be busy tmr
so i am going to wish everyone a happy Thanksgiving right now
we have so much things to be thankful for
like family, friends, new president, etc
so be thankful
and enjoy your turkey or whatever you are having for thanksgiving

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

bad time

my religion is Roman Catholic
and i am proud to say that i attend church service every week and study the bible
and a member of korean catholic church community

every church have some kind of a youth group
sunday school for little kids (k-8)
at our church we have a group called SCKY (St. Christoper Korean Youth) for high school kids
and Chung Nyun Boo (청년부)for young adults (college)(i am part of this group)
CNB is new this year and also new this year is that
all the groups will be meeting on saturday night
i say good job person who planned this because meeting on saturday night is sooo smart (i am being sarcastic)

most of college students have jobs
and if you have or had a job, you know that saturday nights are always the busiest of all days
we had 4 meetings and the maximum number of people were 10 and 37 was suppose to come
well like 10 attend school far away or different state
and the rest have jobs
it just surprises me that 10 people actually show up
because a college student in their right mind would not bother coming to church on saturday night
unfortunately 8 of the 10 came because they teach SCKY or little kids
so they dont mind staying a little longer
me and this other person come out because we dont have anything better to do

CNB didnt do much
1st meeting we discussed wat we expect and wat we want in this group
2nd we played board and card games
3rd we were suppose to have a movie night but end up playing board games again
4th we ate out at Dennis
next week we are gonna eat out again
with only 10 members its hard to plan anything efficient
face it 10 might seem a lot but when it comes to retreats and car wash fund raising
its not enough

and it seems that 10 is the number we are stuck with for awhile
unless some people quit work which is not likely thnx to horrible economy
CNB is doomed for now

korean writing

i know this is like my 10th post today
but its because i think these things are just worth posting
i guess
well this one is about my language
Korean writing was created in 1446 by Sejong the Great, a king from Joseon dynasty
Sejong is respected by Koreans for finding the writing system that is still in use today and many other innovations

studies have shown that Korean writing is one of the easiest writing in Asia although classified to be one of the hardest in US, studies have found different among asians
scholars in Korea brought everyday people from different asian countries and found that with only 4 hours of instruction these people were able to write and understand simple korean words
compared to other asian language which required more time

according to studies, King Sejong created the writing to be simple on purpose for poor subjects
before Korean writing was invented, korean subjects used chinese characters which was very difficult to learn especially for the lower class who could not afford education
to solve this problem King Sejong created the writing simple enough for even the lower class to learn

now why does this matter?
if kings with absolute power can be so caring about their subjects
why cant the government today do the same?

i choose sejong as example cause i saw a documentary on tv about him
and people say you cant learn anything from tv

oh ho ho wow

if you dont know yet
i want to be a film director
and tonight i had an awesome experience
at 11:35 pm
my sister (sophomore in highschool) called me to pick her up from school
now why was she at school at that time of the hour?
it was for her color guard competition
color guard, for those who dont know, is like cheer leading but more artistic
its girls and sometimes guys who appear with marching band and swing colorful flags, throw and catch rifles and swords and such its really nice
so anyways i head to her school
then suddenly comes a thick fog
the fog was soooo thick that you could not see the car in front of you
you can only see two red dots (lights at the rear of the car)
the parking lot at the school was worse
you could not even see people walking around

now what does film directing and thick fog relate?
well i felt like i was in the horror movie
i also felt like i was in ET when a car was coming towards me
my eyes acted like a camera in a horror movie movie set
i thought to myself
"if i ever direct a horror movie, i am going to use tons of fog"
this whole fog thing gave me mix feelings
i was excited and kind of scared
like going into a haunted house
so the lesson in all this
fog is good in movies
its like the dark but more eerie because with fog comes the chills
and eerie + chills = good scare and good horror movie
i guess
thats my theory

rain drops falling on my head

according to many many weather forecasts, southern california is gonna get rain
YAY!!!
we need the rain, its been just too dry here
unfortunately to fire victims, the rain is an enemy
if you know the geographical effects of wild fires skip next section
if you dont then read on

effects of fire
fire burns all the brush in the hills
when these bushes and plants are burned and eventually die
not only the plant itself die but the roots are gone too
the roots are important because roots hold the soil together
the fire kills the plant and the roots of plants, not only that but makes the air and the soil really dry
thats what they mean when people says "fire creates its own weather" (the dryness)
now when it rains the water mixes with the dry soil and creates mud
the mud slides down the hill and create land slides and mudslides

now many of the homes that burned in the fire are at the base of hills
so when it rains and when the water creates mudslides
these neighborhoods are going to be effected
so people in these neighborhoods are sandbagging the area and trying to protect their homes
you can understand the frustration these people feel whether or not their home burned down or not
if their home did burned down then it frustrates them because that gives them less time to dig through and find things that survive the fire not only that it gonna delay cleaning and rebuilding process
if their home survive the fire then they have to worry about another disaster that comes their way

i wish them good luck

singles females and marriage

i was watching a documentary in Korean
they interviewed a single women with her own book store
she was in 30s yet single
she said she does want to get married but now does not seem to be a great time for marriage

studies conducted showed that there are more single women in 30s today
studies in 1970 showed that only 9.1% of female population between ages of 20-30 were single
today 58% were single
the results above are for South Korea not the world

another study showed that Japan was passed the 50% mark 20 yrs before Korea
survey shows that more women believe one does not need to marry to live a happy life
korea (51% of women between 20-30 said marriage was not necessary)
Japan (59% of women between 20-30 said marriage was not necessary)
the theory is economy
Japan is very well known for strong economy so the theory behind the numbers might be economy
women wants to be more independent and strong economy is allowing these women to open businesses and financially independent

i just thought this was interesting
now i wonder what men's numbers are and how men feel about this

this is gotta stop

today i was watching the news
and they showed a clip of fireworks at the new Atlantis Resort at Dubai
the whole fireworks costs $20million and the guest of the party were
as you guessed Hollywood Stars
so even in this economy we can clearly see that rich people are enjoying life
while the poor work hard and barely feed their family

it just looks like the rich are watching a tv show and the tv show is the hardships of middle and low class people
this is wrong and this is gotta stop
rich getting richer and poor getting poorer
wtf is that

well dont worry people
once obama is in the office
this will stop

lucky day

today (nov 15) was a lucky day
something really good happened to me that made my day

i had a crush on this girl for awhile
unfortunately
the situation is really complicated
ive known her through church youth group and it was love at first sight
but i was stupid
i was very not self confident and thought she was just too perfect for me
so i gave up on her and decided to ask out someone that seem a little less perfect
the name of the girl i liked was min and the girl i asked out is yoonji, min's cousin
i got to know them both when our church attended a huge youth group and yoonji and min both attended
after i got to know them better i decided to ask yoonji out
i didnt ask yoonji out directly because i needed to make sure yoonji is single so that when i ask her out, it wouldnt make a weird and awkward situation
my friends advised me to ask yoonji's cousin or sister if she have one
so with that idea my head said
"min is yoonji's cousin, so if i ask min about yoonji then problem solved"

now the climax
after i asked min about yoonji, i found out that yoonji was single but was crushing on someone else
after this event min stopped relying to my messages on facebook and myspace
and stopped coming out to church
this was definately weird and made me wonder about min and min's behavior
i felt like not being able to solve a difficult puzzle and wont be able to sleep without solving it

so i posted my situation and asked questions about min's behavior on Yahoo Answers
yes, i was desperate
i posted the same question about 6x
most of them gave me same answers: "min had crush on you but felt bad cuz you asked about her cousin yoonji"

boy those were some shocking answers, who would have thought that the perfect girl i had a crush on but thought was too good for me would have a crush on me?
fate huh?
after this i felt sooooo bad about this whole situation
i felt so much guilt that i thought i was going insane
this happened a year ago

so what makes today special?
min lives at Diamond bar, same diamond bar that is being effected by the fires of orange county in southern california
so taking my chances and gathering up enough courage
i posted on her facebook wall
"hey
i heard the fire is burning at diamond bar
how you holding up?"
her response
"oh thanks for your concern! it really didn't affect me too much bc the fire never really hit any structures in DB. we were very lucky."

the fact that she responded made my day
but i kept having thoughts about how she might have moved on
well anyways her response gave me an idea
i am gonna ask her to meet me some where so i can tell her my story
the story above
about how i wanted her at first but i thought she was too good for me
and apologize for causing her bad feelings in person
its do or die
i dont care if she accepts my feelings or not
i just want her to know
just want her to know

what is wrong with people?!

as i stated below there are few fires burning right now at LA and Orange County areas
one of the fire is now less than 10 miles away from my house
ash and smoke is covering the air and ground
fortunately no one has died (yet) but couple of firefighters were injured
also 6 people were arrested for looting

i know our economy is not at best right now in fact its the worst since great depression and people are desperate but wtf seriously looting?
these people were caught trying or duration of looting evacuated homes effected by the fire
the home owners are already worried about their homes and loosing everything they worked hard to attain and these people wants to add more worries to these people
what happened to the world?
seriously
it seems that our society is getting worse and worse and no bright future anytime ahead

End of the World

if you havent watched the news then you probably dont know about the fire in southern California there are 2 large fires (fire storm) in orange county
and another fire in LA County
the 2 fires in orange county is about 10 to 15 miles away from my house

anyways
with all the fires and watching the news all day makes things look like the end of the world
many homes are being destroyed, thousands evacuated to local high schools and other evacuation centers, thousands of acres burned, firefighters injured, resources running out (mayor and firefighters have asked people to conserve water and power), its just crazy
if you have seen all the live pictures on news of expensive homes being burn down, people crying, people with worried faces, and people escaping then you know this is not something to laugh about
and when firefighters announce that they have no containment of the fire, it makes things worse

pray for those who lost their homes
pray for firefighters who put their lives on the line to save people and their homes
pray for those who have been evacuated and constantly worry about their homes and businesses

this is gotta be bad for me

look when i posted this post

yes its that late
or early
which ever one you like

now why am i up at this hour?
i dont know that either
i am just up watching vids on youtube and surfing the web and writing this
but this is probably bad for my health
not getting any sleep
*sigh*

i should sleep for my health

dont people get it

there is protesting in Los Angeles and Hollywood today
because prop 8 passed to band same sex marriage

yes it unfair to gay people who want same rights as any other people
but voting results speak for themselves
people voted against same sex marriage and thats that
until next election
protesting to reverse that decision will cause more conflicts

if the supreme court of california or federal government do overturn the election results and either order a re election or ignore the election results completely
then supporters of other propositions that did not pass will protest and demand re elections and such

if something is done about this issue
its gonna start an endless cycle of protests and angry people
i myself is not happy with the election results but whats done is done
especially when it comes to elections
but sometimes you have to sacrifice a finger to save the hand

think about that

acting class fun

this is a short scene created by my group in acting and actors class
its a spin off of star wars

Darth Vader and Luke Skywalker engages in a duel to death with light sabers and the force

*Luke looses his lightsaber*

Luke: oh crap

*Darth Vader approaches*

Vader: join the dark side Luke, join me and the emperor, we can rule the universe

Luke: never! i will never join you or the dark side! you killed my father!

Vader: no Luke, i am your father

Luke: wtf you sure?

Vader: yes, i am your father

Luke: wow, umm...huh...wow, thats unexpected

Vader: how so?

Luke: i was hoping my real father would be someone cooler

Vader: cooler?

Luke: yeah, like master yoda or chubacca

Vader: what!? i am cool

Luke: no...no...nope

*few seconds of silence*

Luke: well i think i am gonna go back now

Vader: you do that, call me when you get back ill be at the Death Star

Luke: maybe

Vader: you know my number?

Luke: i will look it up on yellowpages see ya

*Luke leaves*

*Emperor enters*

Emperor: kids (shakes his head) they have no respect for parents
*scene ends*

and unfortunately to some and fortunately to some
prop 8 passed
defining marriage as between a man and a women in california constitution
making same sex marriage illegal

i just dont know anymore

today is a mixed feeling day
i am happy, glad, and excited about Senator Obama becoming President Obama

but today over is a shitty day for me
i tried doing something good
and other people wont comply

its a pretty cold night here in California
rain fell during the night
there is a lot of moisture and cold air in the atmosphere
my sister is at school color guard practice
its going to be cold and i didnt want her to wait too long in the cold
so i leave the comfort of my warm home 10 minutes earlier than i usually do

i arrive at school 5 mins before 9 PM which is the time when practice was suppose to end
i was rushing so i came out wearing basketball shorts and a t-shirt
it feels like a freezer
i start to have thoughts like "ahh, this must be how frozen meat feels"

30 mins i wait in this cold
no sign of my sis
finally after 50 mins
she comes out

i asked "Why did you take so long?"
her reply "why are you complaining? i didnt call you to pick me up"

u know what my thought is after those words

wtf
fucking shit
i waited almost an hour in the freezing weather and this is the reply i get
i missed Obama speech for this shit
wow

this not the only time
i have gotten shittier reply from many people
for doing what seems right and helpful

serious
i probably get more positive comment for joining a gang and shooting down random people

they will be like "What you shot down 18 random people and 15 cops! Dude thats fucking awesome, you r a killing machine, you r my new idol."
i will take that comment any day
compare to what i get for doing good

so this incident marks the last days of any good doing my me
i am afraid that next time i do something good
i will get killed

peace
and dont do anything good
its bad for you

Election day

if you are not keeping up with the 08 election
Obama won the election

i guess you can say a land slide
cuz mccain did not reach 200 electoral votes

now election might be over
but people in california is still waiting for the results of propositions
most waited is proposition 8

prop 8, if passed, would define marriage as between a man and a women
in the state constitution

we (at least i am) waiting to see how the results turn out