Happy New Years

Happy New Years everyone!!!

hope your new year be filled with joy and wonderful things!

Attraction

when someone say "He/She is very attractive" they are talking about that person's looks
but when you are looking for someone to spend your whole life with, you have to look behind external appeal
things like personality and other person's ability comes in play as well
young people rely on looks to find their boyfriend/girlfriend
but i found out that looks are not the only thing that i should find attractive

during my high school years, group friends would get together and talk about what type of girls we are into
we all agreed that cute girls are better than hot girls
we all also agree that sex appeal was one of main points
bigger breasts and hips, sexy legs, and flat stomach, it was the ideal girl for all of us
we would not even talk about girl's characteristics or personality
but now that i am reaching 20s i began to look for more in a girl, like personality
and my idea of perfect girl changed

i stopped caring about breast/hip size and even height
maybe i am maturing or maybe its because i learned that "Mom Test" decreases number of candidates (mom test shrinks the number of girls i can date and be in relationship with)idk but description of my crush does not fit my high school description of a perfect girl

my current crush is bit on a short side, (she mentions that she is short constantly, always comparing her height to her younger sister, who is bit taller than her)
she has average size breasts and hips (from my observation, plz dont think of me as a pervert)
she is cute
she is pretty smart
she has outgoing personality
and she will always be beautiful to me

btw many girls do not know this, but certain hairstyles also attract guys,
i think ponytails are sexy
some of my friends like long hair

and here is word of encouragement, you girls are beautiful
so dont be discouraged when you watch Victoria Secret's fashion show
most guys would prefer average girl over a lingerie model

it seems that today's teenage girls are discouraged about their looks

sleeping habits

i was watching a movie on my laptop and when i was half way through
i noticed that it was 1:15 AM
i also noticed that, ever since winter break started
i have been sleeping at 4 AM and waking up at 12 PM
its a really bad habit and i think my sleeping pattern is fucked up now
but this reminded me or an article my friend told me about few months ago

she said she read an article about sleep deprivation
i dont remember the exact numbers but 90-80% of people were sleep deprived
also nearly 90% of high school students in US was sleep deprived
the article also stated that missed hours of sleep pile up, causing sleep deprived people to be tired
only way to cure fatigue and make up lost sleep was to either take a nap or go to sleep early

later i also remembered how my bad sleeping habits started
as the first son of Asian family, i was always encouraged to study harder and longer than other students
but i loved movies and such, so i stayed up and watched movies and such
unfortunately i still do that
another reason was my crush
i always thought about her, every thing made me think about her
i look up at the skies and thought if she was looking up at the sky too
i would lay on my bed and think of thousands of different methods to get her attention and confess to her

hmm...
its 1:34 now...
i better try to sleep...

good night or good morning
and look forward to New Years!!!

Another One

so last night i was trying to sleep and thinking of many things at the same time
when i suddenly thought of something so wonderful: another Romantic Writing of mine
so i got out of bed and wrote it down, because i had a feeling that i will forget it in the morning and i would regret not writing it down
so here it is

Do you know why light symbolizes hope?
its because when you are lost in the darkness light will show you the way
giving you "hope" that you will find your way
Life is very similar to this concept
since we can't see whats is ahead, its similar to being lost in darkness
but we have guides that will help us take the correct path
small lights shines your way
these small lights are your friends and family members

unfortunately, no matter how many small lights you have
its not bright enough to show you the path
you need something more bright
that bright light is someone who holds the key to your heart
yes, your love, girlfriend/boyfriend, someone you want to be with forever...

unfortunately for me, i don't have that bright light to help me towards the correct path
____________(girlfriend/boyfriend's name) will you be my shining bright light?


ya its bit long, but it really doesnt matter right?
well just like the other ones i am gonna post this on yahoo answers to see how other people react to it
somehow i think of these things when i am tired or right before i fall asleep
there has been numerous times when i thought of a wonderful story or wonderful thing to say but felt lazy to wrote it down before falling asleep
i regret being lazy, cuz i forget all the things that i thought out in the morning
anyways

Christmas is over, hope all of you had a Merry Christmas
and all of you are excited for New Years
i already have thought of many resolutions and i am determine to keep
we will see how long this composure will last

btw i had a wonderful week, i got to see my favorite person on monday
she said "Hi" all i could do was wave back, i wasnt expecting her to say anything
in fact i didnt even expect to see her
i also saw her on wednesday at church
thnx for coming out to church Min Shon...

Economic Sense

i know economy has been on bad terms for couple of months
but past few days, i finally saw the true extend of this bad economy
as u all probably know, Mervyn's is going out of business
and they have been having "going out of business" sale

few years ago, many other stores had "going out of business" sale
but they never closed
so i thought Mervyn's was the same
plus they said it was "sale" but many of the stuff were same prices

3 days ago, i was out with my sister and my parents and they wanted to stop by Mervyn's
to see if any deals are good
when we went in the store
there was nothing
everything was on sale
even the shelves and other furniture that the store used to display goods were for sale
many other businesses like Lining N' Things near by closed down
and now Steve and Berry's are closing
and many new small businesses are struggling to get things started
this ramen store was scheduled to open by November, but it still hasnt
upon seeing these bad things i understood how serious and how fast this economy is effecting us

even worse, my dad's close friend/co-worker lost his job
and he was struggling to find a job despite having long years of experience
he needed to get a loan because he did not want to see his kids go without Christmas presents
he horrible thing is that, he is not alone, there are thousands just in California who are struggling to find a job and struggling to support their family during the holidays

also people are not celebrating holidays
yesterday i was with friends
we were talking about what we are doing for holidays
everyone of us were staying home, usually, many of us would go snowboarding and go to Las Vegas or go visit relatives but this year, due to slow economy, everyone is
staying home

another thing
gas rose slightly
many are predicting another price hike, i hope it doesnt

may all of you have safe and happy holidays

Really Really Busy Weekend

over the weekend i went to something called a "Lock In"
its an event where the guests cannot leave the meeting/party/fun event
anyways
the Lock In i attended is 2days 1night long, and i stayed up all night
its was for college students
so of course there were some alcohol involved
but unlike college parties with just a lot of beer
this event had only hard liquor
Jack Daniels, Vodka, this other stuff i dont remember and bunch of light drinks
light drinks had like 5% alcohol and tasted like juice

i have tried many alcoholic drinks like wine, beer, sake, and soju (Korean drink) and small sips of scotch and whisky but never tried full cups and large amounts
well did over the weekend

all of the guests were buzzing except one girl
she drank so much vodka and later JD that she got drunk and end up doing stupid things (nothing sexual)
she ended up throwing up

i found out that i love to drink, everything tasted good and i wanted more, but i held my urge to drink more
plus i wasnt suppose to be drinking anyways
my favorite drink of the night was this unnamed thing my friend made me
it was mix of pepsi, monster, and Jack Daniel, it was sooo good


well it was great party
got to meet people i havent seen for nearly a year
it was just fun
so far my winter break has been awesome
hope u guys are enjoying yours...
be safe
happy holidays

Winter Break is Here!!!

so i am off school for a month
yes, my school starts on the 20th of jan 2009

although school is off, i am constantly worried about school
i have to worry about book costs and buying books,
last semester i procrastinated and i have to buy new books, which cost me more for no particular reason
this semester i am keeping track
i just received an email from my school bookstore that my books are available
i am thinking of going back to school next week so i can buy used books
with current economy struggling, i have to do everything in my power to save some cash

btw if u havent seen it on the news, another auto company bail-out plan passed
but Ford is not included

u can start to see how bad the economy is
i see more homeless people on the street and in homeless shelters
i know its tough, but holidays are here
and in the season of giving
i say u can spare couple of change to the homeless
i will be doing my best to donate couple of bucks to charity or just a random homeless person i see

Happy Holidays
~peace

I am Freeeee

so today was my last final
i have to go to school tmr to sell my textbooks
then i am free for a month and 2 weeks

but there is one problem
my wallet is getting thinner everyday
i dont have a job yet
i been looking for one since last summer but with this economy
people want to get rid of employees not hire one
i have few connection and i just turned in an application
so i am just waiting for them to call
wish me luck!!!

Almost There

so i am almost done with my finals
i know that most schools are either done or finishes on friday
but here in CSU Northridge we end next wednesday

i have 2 more finals on tuesday
well more like 1 more, 1 final is just turn in a project which is already completed and do a small presentation on what the project is
the last final is a test, but i already studied and just reviewing now

plus i am passing all my classes so its not a problem i should be worried.
wish me luck...
and enjoy your break

Teen Girls vs. Porn

On CNN.com yesterday there was a story about two high school girls who were kicked from their cheer squad because they were sexting
sexting is when a girl or a guy (mostly girls) sends nude and sexual pictures of themselves to their boyfriend/girlfriend through picture text messaging feature on their cell phone

the reporter interviewed a researcher who studies child/teen parenting and behavior, according to her there is three main reasons why girls do this

1) they are teenagers, their blood is filled with hormones and their bodies are mass producing them and its is of course "natural" to feel that way

2) celebrities are bad role models. teenage stars like vanessa hudgens, jamie lynn spears, and miley cyrus who all have been caught taking naughty picture of themselves are having bad influences on young girls

3) porn now can be easily accessed. any guy can go online and effortlessly find porn sites and girls feel threatened towards it. they also feel that the only way they can gain and keep attention from their boyfriend is by taking nude and indecent pictures of themselves and send it to them

the researcher suggested parents get their child a camera-less phone, because they dont need the camera on their cell phone

*sign*
moral extincted in this society...

Poetic

ive been very poetic recently i dont know why but
i have been reading many lyrics of raps and hip hop songs
rap songs are poem with fancy beats at the background
so rap songs are really poetic
especially Shing02

Shing02 is a Japanese MC who grew up in UK and later came to US
he is not really well known here but he has few albums both in Japanese and English
he also has many collaboration with other artists like Nujabes

Shing02's lyrics are hard to understand (at least for me) they are pretty poetic so i always have to look up his lyrics
also most of his songs are not like gangster hip hop rap
its really calm and such so just check it out

Experiment

if u scroll down
u will see a log titled "Confessing Love" and list of few things that a guys should say to a girl when he confesses
well i want to see how other people felt about it
so i went to yahoo answers, its one of features of yahoo
where one can ask any questions and someone on it will answer it
so i pasted one of the writings and asked to give reactions

[i look up at the clouds and they form your brilliant smile
i look down at the ground and sprouts a flower that reminds me of your beauty
every where i look, i am reminded of you
in my mind's eye, you are the only girl in this world
in my heart, i know you are the only one for me
i offer you my life and love
will you please accept it?]
its the one that i posted on yahoo answers

many girls thought i was proposing, maybe its the "i offer you my life" part
anyways i think 1 guy answered, he said it was good but i should be careful when i use it
many girls also thought it was very romantic and liked it a lot

i just wrote it but since i got a lot of really positive reviews so i am thinking of saving it and using it later
when i confess my love
but i am going to leave "i offer you my life" part out

omg finals!!!

finals week is next week
i have most of my finals next thursday and one last final next next tuesday
most of finals are pretty easy
in fact i am already done with one of them
for English all i had to do was put all the drafts of essays i wrote for the class
into a portfolio and write a page long letter to the reader
i turned it in on thursday so done with English for semester
acting and actors class, its a group project where group of 2-4 people pick any scene from book, movie, plays, and such and reenact but with a twist
MSC 150 a class where we use AutoCad 2008 software to draw 3-d pictures
its an engineering class but i took it because i couldnt get into my math class
anyways for that class i have to pick an object and draw it
i picked a turntable and i am almost done just need to put finishing touches

now the class that worries me the most is Asian American studies and History of Hip Hop class
for those classes i have a test
according to professor for hip hop class, we are gonna have 100 questions long multiple choice questions, i havent been reading the materials after mid term so i have to do intense studying and reading for this class
Asian American studies class, i actually kept up but i still need to review my notes, as for the test, its part multiple choice, part fill in the blank, and part written essay
its the essay that worries me but luckily, since class covers tons of info
they have no choice but to give us the topic for the essay (lucky lucky)

its the first finals in college for me so i am excited and nervous
i wish all of you luck either you are in highschool or college
and please wish me luck

confessing love

somethings guys should say to a girl
when they confess to her

i look up at the clouds and they form your brilliant smile
i look down at the ground and sprouts a flower that reminds me of your beauty
every where i look, i am reminded of you
in my mind's eye, you are the only girl in this world
in my heart, i know you are the only one for me
i offer you my life and love
will you please accept it?

_________________________________________________________________________

i might be poor and empty handed
but i am rich at heart
although i cant give u a 40k diamond ring
i can give you my life and my love
and the key to my heart

__________________________________________________________________________

sun in california's summer cant out shine your smile
you are more beautiful than any angel God may send
you are more precious to me than any thing in this world
you complete me
you are like water, i cant live without you
you are everything to me
having you in my arms is all i need to live


these are all written by me
its not from any website or book
i swear that things i wrote are completely 100% my words

Time Flies

it feels like yesterday that me and my friends just graduated high schools
but its been half an year
and in like 2 weeks, me and my friends will be enjoying a 2 month long winter vacation
time flies by so fast

spam or no spam

recently i have been getting a lot of weird emails
i use yahoo mail and like all or most emailing sites yahoo identifies between spam and email and places them in different locations
today i checked my email account and received an email from person i dont know
i am expecting my group project members to email me things so i opened it just in case its one of group members

the email is not from my group members but from a widow
in the message she wrote that she wanted to share her late husband's assets to God loving people
so that they can use the money to do good like build charities and such
she wrote that if me or anyone who receives the message is God loving and willing to help then contact her by email

another one i received was from a realitor
the message was addressed to someone else so i deleted

and another weird email i received was from a lawyer
this was again addressed to the wrong person but it wasnt addressed to the same person as the letter from the realitor

i received the 3 emails in period of 2 weeks
so i am wondering if you can have really similar email address that is like 1 letter or number difference if this is possible it would explain why i am getting emails addressed to other people

paranormal

recently i have been very into paranormal things
like i have been watching Ghost Hunters episodes online
and searching for photos and videos of paranormal things
and even reading about experiences of paranormal and such
its really interesting if u think about it
ghosts living among us
exploring haunted places and experiencing paranormal things
i think its very interesting

i had one myself
it was when i was 4th grade
i was sleeping with a night stand on (i used to wake up in the middle of night to get water and use the bathroom and i would always run into things so my parents bought a night stand)
my room door was open
my bed was placed so that my head was facing the door way
there was a small drawer behind the head board for support and so i can put a cup of water and my night stand on it
it was little past 12AM
i woke up and turned around to get a drink of water
i happened to look at the door way
and i saw a dress sway by
i thought it was my mom and her robe that i saw
but in the morning when i asked my mom
she said she was asleep through the night
same for my sis and my dad
unfortunately
nothing like that happened ever again

the reason why i am writing this is because right now
the sky is red and its really foggy outside
and this eerie environment reminded me of this incident