lonelyness

i am a shy person
there are a lot of guys and girls who can go up to people and say things like
"hey, i think your pretty cute, wanna have a drink with me?"
but i am not one of them

i have never thought about being in a relationship
i always thought lovey dovey couple stuff can come after college and once i am independent from my parents

but since valentine's day is coming up, i have been thinking about love and things
i have short list of female friends
most of them were once classmates, we talk, but dont hang out
surely lack of girls in my life makes my life so boring
i need to go out and meet new people

too bad i dont dorm or go to school everyday
that would give me more chances to meet and hangout with new people

if there is a medicine that cures my inability to socialize with girls
then i would buy it and overdose on them
*sign*

i guess i can try to tell Ann S. that i love her
but
things are looking grim...