lucky day

today (nov 15) was a lucky day
something really good happened to me that made my day

i had a crush on this girl for awhile
unfortunately
the situation is really complicated
ive known her through church youth group and it was love at first sight
but i was stupid
i was very not self confident and thought she was just too perfect for me
so i gave up on her and decided to ask out someone that seem a little less perfect
the name of the girl i liked was min and the girl i asked out is yoonji, min's cousin
i got to know them both when our church attended a huge youth group and yoonji and min both attended
after i got to know them better i decided to ask yoonji out
i didnt ask yoonji out directly because i needed to make sure yoonji is single so that when i ask her out, it wouldnt make a weird and awkward situation
my friends advised me to ask yoonji's cousin or sister if she have one
so with that idea my head said
"min is yoonji's cousin, so if i ask min about yoonji then problem solved"

now the climax
after i asked min about yoonji, i found out that yoonji was single but was crushing on someone else
after this event min stopped relying to my messages on facebook and myspace
and stopped coming out to church
this was definately weird and made me wonder about min and min's behavior
i felt like not being able to solve a difficult puzzle and wont be able to sleep without solving it

so i posted my situation and asked questions about min's behavior on Yahoo Answers
yes, i was desperate
i posted the same question about 6x
most of them gave me same answers: "min had crush on you but felt bad cuz you asked about her cousin yoonji"

boy those were some shocking answers, who would have thought that the perfect girl i had a crush on but thought was too good for me would have a crush on me?
fate huh?
after this i felt sooooo bad about this whole situation
i felt so much guilt that i thought i was going insane
this happened a year ago

so what makes today special?
min lives at Diamond bar, same diamond bar that is being effected by the fires of orange county in southern california
so taking my chances and gathering up enough courage
i posted on her facebook wall
"hey
i heard the fire is burning at diamond bar
how you holding up?"
her response
"oh thanks for your concern! it really didn't affect me too much bc the fire never really hit any structures in DB. we were very lucky."

the fact that she responded made my day
but i kept having thoughts about how she might have moved on
well anyways her response gave me an idea
i am gonna ask her to meet me some where so i can tell her my story
the story above
about how i wanted her at first but i thought she was too good for me
and apologize for causing her bad feelings in person
its do or die
i dont care if she accepts my feelings or not
i just want her to know
just want her to know